prayer for results

God i pray once again, before the results are made known to us tomorrow. rumours are flying around, but i try to have faith that my fate is Yours to decide. whatever is in the envelope or on the results slip cannot be changed now, but i have faith that You have decided my future according to Your wishes, and no matter what happens my belief in You will not waver.

i won't pray for my own results. what happens to me is inconsequential in the greater plan of things, unless i am to play a bigger part. i want to pray for the results of my friends, of those people who have stood by me all these years (aside from my family), some of whom i truly love dearly, more than any material object i could own. i pray that You grant them the wishes of their hearts, that they may be happy with what they receive, that their lives would be meaningful to this world, and for those who believe, after death.

i pray first for the Venture Scouts, boys who've become men, men i've known for fully a third of my life. i've already paid tribute to them in what words i can, but i know no words can describe the friendship and loyalty they've shown to me and to each other. i pray that they be successful in their endeavours, and that no matter what happens, i pray our friendships remain strong, forged from the fires of tribulations endured together, and i thank You for the years spent together.

i pray for the rest of the level, for those i've had the joy of knowing, as well as those whom i regret not knowing. better friends i may never know, and most certainly i can claim to have utterly enjoyed my time in acs with these people, and for that i thank You. i pray that they too may be granted the desires of their hearts, that they receive the due for the effort they've put in, time spent in study together, in laboratories together, even on the field together, not as separate individuals, but truly as brothers (and sisters), and may our bonds remain strong for as long as we maintain them.

and i pray finally for one person, who has affected me more deeply than i could have ever imagined. i don't even know how to put it in words, but when i'm around her i never want time to move. maybe i'm completely wrong about this, but i can do little about it now. thank You for allowing me to spend all those hours with her, because even if my motives were misguided, i truly believe that time spent has been beneficial in ways few others could have done for me. she's the loveliest person i've met, and little can change that. i pray that her wishes are granted, because i believe she deserves them, even though i have no right to. and mostly, it's when she's smiling, when she's happy, that's when it feels like the world is a better place. again, it could be completely wrong, but with all my heart i believe she is the most beautiful person i've ever met.

i have not been the most faithful of Muslims, but my eyes have been opened. i confess to constantly forgetting (and just as often avoiding) prayer rituals, but i want to be stronger in belief, because i know some things are beyond my control, no matter how hard i try to achieve them. my fate is out of my hands now, and though my path has been written already, i know not what my future holds, so help me to have faith in what You plan to do with my life.

Amin