last day of school
the time has come and passed, and now there remains only three full weeks till the beginning of the end. how exciting
today was everything i could want it to be, though i still hold some regrets that there were a few things that i would also have wanted to do. mostly it involves just taking photos with people, some of whom i could be seeing a lot of next year in Tekong, and some of whom i may never see again for years.
it did seem to be a bit abrupt though. there was very little emotion around. it's like, suddenly i'm already at home, and it occurs to me that i won't ever have to glance at my wallet-timetable ever again. no more hoping that teachers are on mc (or in some cases have fallen down stairs, or even worse). no more standing/sitting/lying along the corridors during free time. no more rushing down to grab a bite during 20 minute breaks. and it ended just like that. so sad. oh well. time to move on
we also were voting for awards for prom, and i realise that in all my attempts, and for all the pressure on me, to achieve and maintain excellence, i am happiest hovering in mediocre obscurity. sure i'd love to be the good looking one, or the smart one, or the charismatic one, but someone has to be less than all that, for there to be anything beyond mediocrity, and for some reason i quite enjoy being out of the limelight. personal awards and accolades mean nothing. they merely serve to boost the ego, which can be unhealthy at times.
but the problem of being in intact classes for 2 years came back to haunt me today when i realised that half of those i voted for were either in .4 or .3, which is pathetic because for certain there are better individuals out there in the other classes who would be much more suited to fulfilling the 'requirements' of the various awards. well, too late to change anything now.
so just like that, school has ended, and i say again, i'm going to miss the people and the friendship that school gave me, which despite bill's stories of bonding and the such, i highly doubt can be found anywhere else for a long long time.
today was everything i could want it to be, though i still hold some regrets that there were a few things that i would also have wanted to do. mostly it involves just taking photos with people, some of whom i could be seeing a lot of next year in Tekong, and some of whom i may never see again for years.
it did seem to be a bit abrupt though. there was very little emotion around. it's like, suddenly i'm already at home, and it occurs to me that i won't ever have to glance at my wallet-timetable ever again. no more hoping that teachers are on mc (or in some cases have fallen down stairs, or even worse). no more standing/sitting/lying along the corridors during free time. no more rushing down to grab a bite during 20 minute breaks. and it ended just like that. so sad. oh well. time to move on
we also were voting for awards for prom, and i realise that in all my attempts, and for all the pressure on me, to achieve and maintain excellence, i am happiest hovering in mediocre obscurity. sure i'd love to be the good looking one, or the smart one, or the charismatic one, but someone has to be less than all that, for there to be anything beyond mediocrity, and for some reason i quite enjoy being out of the limelight. personal awards and accolades mean nothing. they merely serve to boost the ego, which can be unhealthy at times.
but the problem of being in intact classes for 2 years came back to haunt me today when i realised that half of those i voted for were either in .4 or .3, which is pathetic because for certain there are better individuals out there in the other classes who would be much more suited to fulfilling the 'requirements' of the various awards. well, too late to change anything now.
so just like that, school has ended, and i say again, i'm going to miss the people and the friendship that school gave me, which despite bill's stories of bonding and the such, i highly doubt can be found anywhere else for a long long time.
posted by Aizat at
10/12/2007 04:19:00 pm
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