not about her anymore

so much time has passed since that particular encounter all those months ago, and i guess i've truly realised the impact it's had on me since then. initially it seemed just like any normal situation, but for some reason, the more time passed, things began to change, to shape themselves differently. and it's no more about her anymore. it's down to me now. it's like something out of siddhartha. she was the turning point, somehow, and the strange thing is that i can't even pinpoint what it was that started the change. and it's no sudden change. over these months my eyes have been opened to other things, that may not have happened had that encounter not occurred.

strange how life works. which is why we mortal humans have faith in our respective religions, that our lives and fates have already been determined long before we were born, and that we are only travelling down a pre-determined path, designed by those respective omnipotent beings that we pay homage to. so in a sense, it's like i've woken up somehow, when i was asleep all these years

interestingly, there were a lot of minor minor things that would normally have happened, but didn't happen, to result in the encounter in the first place. like fahrul coming late, and shrey having already performed earlier. proof that we are never in complete control of our lives.

EDIT: don't get me wrong. she's one of the prettiest girls i've ever had the pleasure of knowing in my short life so far, and i'd love to have the chance to love her, but some things are just not meant to be, and we have to move on, and treat those experiences as lessons to be carried throughout our lives