whoo enlistment

and the time is finally here to enter that lovely resort in tekong

can't wait

here we go....

thanks

many people to give credit to for my results. thanks to God goes without saying, but i'll repeat anyway because it's never enough, so thank God for guiding me through the last two years, most notably those two months leading up to, and including, the exam period

someone i've never really paid tribute to is Low Jin Yi, because without his recommendation to the fella in PSB (who deserves as much gratitude as well), i could never have done my EE to the point of getting the grade i receieved, so thanks to Jin Yi

thanks to those people whom i studied with in the weeks leading up to exams, especially the people from 6.8 Galatia, like Phua Kailun, Oliver Tan, Claressa Wong, and most of all, one Koh Xuan Qi, without whom i couldn't really have had the discipline to study on my own, and would likely have fallen by the wayside. thanks for letting me study with you all, even though i didnt' have that much in common and couldn't really have helped anyone of you in return, and i apologise now for any trouble i may have caused in the process of our studies =)

thanks to Li Haoyi, and Alex Liew, who endured countless questions from me regarding every subject that we were studying for (mostly because they were the only ones online whenever i needed help, which was quite often). thanks for tolerating even the most redundant or obvious question i may have asked, and for having the patience to still answer them

most of my thanks for the two years in IB have already been said earlier on, so there's little point in rehashing all of it, but a group of people i never really thanked were the teachers. Mr Ferdinand Quek, Mr Patrick Soo, and all of them, for having the patience to deal with us (me most of all) and still continue to try and impart the knowledge to our impatient and restless minds. thank you for never losing faith in us (and me), and i hope my results (some of them at least) are a fitting tribute to your efforts

there are more, and as i remember more people i'll add on to this post....

prayer for results

God i pray once again, before the results are made known to us tomorrow. rumours are flying around, but i try to have faith that my fate is Yours to decide. whatever is in the envelope or on the results slip cannot be changed now, but i have faith that You have decided my future according to Your wishes, and no matter what happens my belief in You will not waver.

i won't pray for my own results. what happens to me is inconsequential in the greater plan of things, unless i am to play a bigger part. i want to pray for the results of my friends, of those people who have stood by me all these years (aside from my family), some of whom i truly love dearly, more than any material object i could own. i pray that You grant them the wishes of their hearts, that they may be happy with what they receive, that their lives would be meaningful to this world, and for those who believe, after death.

i pray first for the Venture Scouts, boys who've become men, men i've known for fully a third of my life. i've already paid tribute to them in what words i can, but i know no words can describe the friendship and loyalty they've shown to me and to each other. i pray that they be successful in their endeavours, and that no matter what happens, i pray our friendships remain strong, forged from the fires of tribulations endured together, and i thank You for the years spent together.

i pray for the rest of the level, for those i've had the joy of knowing, as well as those whom i regret not knowing. better friends i may never know, and most certainly i can claim to have utterly enjoyed my time in acs with these people, and for that i thank You. i pray that they too may be granted the desires of their hearts, that they receive the due for the effort they've put in, time spent in study together, in laboratories together, even on the field together, not as separate individuals, but truly as brothers (and sisters), and may our bonds remain strong for as long as we maintain them.

and i pray finally for one person, who has affected me more deeply than i could have ever imagined. i don't even know how to put it in words, but when i'm around her i never want time to move. maybe i'm completely wrong about this, but i can do little about it now. thank You for allowing me to spend all those hours with her, because even if my motives were misguided, i truly believe that time spent has been beneficial in ways few others could have done for me. she's the loveliest person i've met, and little can change that. i pray that her wishes are granted, because i believe she deserves them, even though i have no right to. and mostly, it's when she's smiling, when she's happy, that's when it feels like the world is a better place. again, it could be completely wrong, but with all my heart i believe she is the most beautiful person i've ever met.

i have not been the most faithful of Muslims, but my eyes have been opened. i confess to constantly forgetting (and just as often avoiding) prayer rituals, but i want to be stronger in belief, because i know some things are beyond my control, no matter how hard i try to achieve them. my fate is out of my hands now, and though my path has been written already, i know not what my future holds, so help me to have faith in what You plan to do with my life.

Amin

memorable 07?

"so what's the most memorable '07 moment or feeling for you? :)"
"without a doubt sitting at the bench next to the turf with her"
"hahaha and how does that feel?"
"like there's nothing wrong in the world. like everything can be made right"