invictus means unconquered

INVICTUS

Out of the night that covers me,
Black as the Pit from pole to pole,
I thank whatever gods may be
For my unconquerable soul.

In the fell clutch of circumstance
I have not winced nor cried aloud.
Under the bludgeonings of chance
My head is bloody but unbowed.

Beyond this place of wrath and tears
Looms but the horror of the shade,
And yet the menace of the years
Finds and shall find me unafraid.

It matters not how strait the gate,
How charged with punishments the scroll,
I am the master of my fate
I am the captain of my soul.

by William Ernest Hemley

if only

if only i had seen the signs coming

if only i had read the situation better

if only i had made the connection faster

if only i had made my run earlier

if only i had gone for the ball when it was played

if only i had connected properly with it

if only i hadn't scoffed the chance

if only i hadn't done this so many times already

if only i was talking about anything to do with sports

sec sch

i went to cut my hair today

first thing the barber asked me was if i was in temasek secondary

-.-"

so it seems we never left secondary school in the first place

or at least, we don't look like we left secondary school

little things

and so she said hi as she walked past, with a casual wave of the hand, and a glint in her eye, and a spring in her step, never knowing, completely unassuming.

how i wish.

if only she knew.

though is that such a good thing after all

yet nothing changes

it's all these little things, that seemingly have no significant effect as life goes on, yet means so much to the one who cares

how i truly wish

cold

i'm beginning to develop a slight affinity for the weather now, especially during the period of time right after it has just rained. besides the cloudy sky, the weather is perfect for doing pretty much anything. like i'm permanently in an air conditioned room. in fact it brings back vague memories of uk and scotland, although in scotland the weather was more usually accompanied by a bright sun shining down on us all

sheer nostalgia

larsson

the Scandinavian connection

manchester united for the treble

ole, ole ole ole, ole, ole

maybe

maybe i'm not meant to take part in life

maybe i'm just supposed to be an observer

a lamp post, if you may

maybe everything i do is in vain

maybe my calling is just to watch over everything

because sure as hell my life ain't working out

a guardian angel, or a leftover

who am i. why am i here.

and why the hell do i even bother

bloody elitists

friendship

friendship is a big part of anyone's life (i almost typed 'key component'. stupid tok essay. making me think so complex). i don't know any single person that can survive without having at least a few friends, regardless of gender. friends are there for you when you need them, much like a family, and they go through much of what you're going through, at the same time, so they can empathise much better than many parents can (despite the countless lectures and pep talks by various adults). for us guys, i don't see many that have a problem with whether their friends are male or female, but i find, and so do others, that other guys tend to be more...useful... shall we say, because there are many things you can do with a group of guys than with the same number of the fairer sex, and even with them in the same group it sometimes tends to be a bit more awkward than if it was an all male gathering. girls do have their roles, and i won't discount it. so most people would have a judicious number of friends from either side, without qualms

but many a time, gender does play a significant role, and it can lead a person to change a lot, even someone that doesn't seem like the type of person to be affected by such...affectations (is that a word?)....and it seems that girls tend to have a stronger effect on the guys than vice versa.

okay i don't know why i'm thinking of this right now. KFC pwnz you