many thoughts

i have much on my mind today

firstly, today was a bad day. i let my temper and my emotion get the better of me and rule my thinking for most of today. looks like i have much to learn with regards to self control. anger management. haha

this week was rather good though. in particular, i watched two movies that left a deep impression on me.

first was Nim's Island. it's a story of a little girl and her father, who live on an island all by themselves. long story short, the thing that struck me about this story was the life of the girl living on the island. it was such a carefree, but unique life, where life teaches you its lessons every single waking and sleeping minute, where you never know what waits around the next tree. but even more than that, it's a life that is completely detached, and correspondingly free of, the perils of human civilisation. no such thing as rat race, no madly rushing through our lives in an endless paper chase. just you, and the world around you.

the second movie was more personal. it's called the Guardian, a movie about the entwined fates of two US Coast Guard rescue swimmers. lessons in the movie were abundant. the first was a signboard bearing the simple, yet immensely powerful, USCG rescue swimmer motto: "So Others May Live". it embodies everything that the swimmers, and Coast Guard as a whole, strive for and are willing to sacrifice for. it's a powerful sight to see a floundering ship with upwards of 5 crew members, and there needs only be 1 rescue swimmer to save them all. the willingness to sacrifice oneself and risk dying 'slow, cold and alone' just to rescue people they don't even know is a powerful image.

secondly, a quote i picked up, mainly for people like sze who are so concerned about growing old.

"I don't mind. I mean if my muscles ache, it's because I've used 'em. It's hard for me to walk up them steps now, its 'cuz I walked up 'em every night to lay next to a man who loved me. I got a few wrinkles here and there, but I've layed under thousands of skies with sunny days. I look and feel this way, well cuz I drank and I smoked. I lived and I loved, danced, sang, sweat and screwed my way thorough a pretty damn good life if you ask me. Getting old ain't bad Ben. Getting old, that's earned"

we shouldn't be scared of getting old. it is a fact of life that cannot be avoided, so we should not fear it, but take it in our stride. we have to earn the right to say that we've been there, done that, and that right can only be earned through blood sweat and tears. life will go on, whether we want it to or not. so why not embrace it.




on a more positive note





OXFORD INTERVIEW 27th OCTOBER

THANK YOU GOD.